Good news for a Monday!

I am very excited because I get to go to my girl friend's baby shower! She lives in Oregon- so I didn't think I would be able to go- But we had a little extra $$ that Aaron was ok w/ me using towards the ticket! And I get to give her the quilt I have been making for her little girl in person. It will be a tight fit, I think they have 4 people that will be staying w/ them for the weekend- but it will be fun!

Other than that- no new news- I did a lot of cleaning this weekend. My shower was in serious need of a scrubbing! Now its all pretty again! I got another cute pic of Butter... I'll have to post it... and I worked on the quilt. My weekend was very uneventful and peaceful- Aaron was gone most of the weekend! But sometimes those are the nicest ones...

Strange Feelings

Everyday I feel like I go more and more into myself. I want to be pregnant so bad and don't really have a normal, rational, responsible way to go about it.

Sure- we could borrow the money- but it's like being between a rock and a hard place. To have enough money to do the procedure we'd have to borrow around $7,000. And saving the money will take forever! (I am not getting younger...) Ok- like 2 years if I don't buy anything for myself or ever go out to eat. I know it seems like it would be worth it (and it would be) but it's not easy to do. And then what if I had just tried the other way and it worked out? That's about 23k that wouldn't have needed to be spent.

And then my other option is to just get pregnant and pray. That just seems crazy too!! And then if I did get pregnant I wouldn't feel like I could tell anyone because of possible impending doom!!

UGH! I hate this. Damn woman hormones... if only I could just be happy childless... I hear all the time "the grass is not always greener on the other side" Well that's just a chance I feel I want to take! But the wall is really tall... and my knees get scrapped every time I think about what I have to potentially go through... I'm not looking for pity- but it just kills me that I have a heart full of love waiting for a little one to be running through the house making me crazy. and it just waits. I've always been able to get what I want and I find a way to get it. But this time- Who Knows! I feel like I have almost no control over the situation and it makes me loony!

So here goes another month...

Oh Wow!

I really can't believe the last post I made was last year!! I have been so crazy busy at work and I hate going on the computer at home... so I've been neglecting my blog.

Not much is going on. Aaron was gone from Jan 1 to Jan 9. It was ok though because I get so much more done around the house when he's not there! I cleaned almost all of the carpets in my house (only missing the dirtiest area because I can't move our couches by myself), I cleaned out our stand-alone freezer (and good thing because all the electrical went out in the laundry room 2 days later) and I started and finished a romance novel! It was very nice. It's weird though because I get out of practice of talking to people so I get a little introverted. But I'm all better now! lol

I'm making my girl friend a quilt for her baby who's due the end of March and I got it pinned yesterday... almost done... just another 15 hours or so and hopefully it'll be done! It's so pretty! I'm very excited for her to get it. I just wish I could be there when she opens it... oh well. That's what happens when friends have to move... I'll post a picture of it after she gets it so the surprise isn't ruined. I'll have to post a finished crafts post...

Hopefully it won't take me another two weeks to get my a@* in gear to post again...