Good news for a Monday!

I am very excited because I get to go to my girl friend's baby shower! She lives in Oregon- so I didn't think I would be able to go- But we had a little extra $$ that Aaron was ok w/ me using towards the ticket! And I get to give her the quilt I have been making for her little girl in person. It will be a tight fit, I think they have 4 people that will be staying w/ them for the weekend- but it will be fun!

Other than that- no new news- I did a lot of cleaning this weekend. My shower was in serious need of a scrubbing! Now its all pretty again! I got another cute pic of Butter... I'll have to post it... and I worked on the quilt. My weekend was very uneventful and peaceful- Aaron was gone most of the weekend! But sometimes those are the nicest ones...

Strange Feelings

Everyday I feel like I go more and more into myself. I want to be pregnant so bad and don't really have a normal, rational, responsible way to go about it.

Sure- we could borrow the money- but it's like being between a rock and a hard place. To have enough money to do the procedure we'd have to borrow around $7,000. And saving the money will take forever! (I am not getting younger...) Ok- like 2 years if I don't buy anything for myself or ever go out to eat. I know it seems like it would be worth it (and it would be) but it's not easy to do. And then what if I had just tried the other way and it worked out? That's about 23k that wouldn't have needed to be spent.

And then my other option is to just get pregnant and pray. That just seems crazy too!! And then if I did get pregnant I wouldn't feel like I could tell anyone because of possible impending doom!!

UGH! I hate this. Damn woman hormones... if only I could just be happy childless... I hear all the time "the grass is not always greener on the other side" Well that's just a chance I feel I want to take! But the wall is really tall... and my knees get scrapped every time I think about what I have to potentially go through... I'm not looking for pity- but it just kills me that I have a heart full of love waiting for a little one to be running through the house making me crazy. and it just waits. I've always been able to get what I want and I find a way to get it. But this time- Who Knows! I feel like I have almost no control over the situation and it makes me loony!

So here goes another month...

Oh Wow!

I really can't believe the last post I made was last year!! I have been so crazy busy at work and I hate going on the computer at home... so I've been neglecting my blog.

Not much is going on. Aaron was gone from Jan 1 to Jan 9. It was ok though because I get so much more done around the house when he's not there! I cleaned almost all of the carpets in my house (only missing the dirtiest area because I can't move our couches by myself), I cleaned out our stand-alone freezer (and good thing because all the electrical went out in the laundry room 2 days later) and I started and finished a romance novel! It was very nice. It's weird though because I get out of practice of talking to people so I get a little introverted. But I'm all better now! lol

I'm making my girl friend a quilt for her baby who's due the end of March and I got it pinned yesterday... almost done... just another 15 hours or so and hopefully it'll be done! It's so pretty! I'm very excited for her to get it. I just wish I could be there when she opens it... oh well. That's what happens when friends have to move... I'll post a picture of it after she gets it so the surprise isn't ruined. I'll have to post a finished crafts post...

Hopefully it won't take me another two weeks to get my a@* in gear to post again...

2008 IS ALMOST OVER!! HURRAY!

Well Christmas was great. Christmas Eve my parents came over and brought food. It was really nice having them over and spending time with them all day. After we ate and several rounds of domino's later... My brother and sister-in-law came over with their little guys and Brandi's parents for dessert. Of course we still have dessert left... it doesn't go very fast in my house unless it's ice cream! My mom enjoyed having the kids over. She misses her grand babies a lot. (Hopefully soon she'll have some more here in AZ!) Christmas day we went to Aaron's Mom's house and played WII and ate w/ his brother, sister and their families. We had a really good time watching the kids open their gifts and have fun w/ all the new toys. Dinner was great too. The rest of the weekend was filed with friends, and annoying trips to stores! Ashsuire and I went to Fashion Square and we stopped in Macy's. They had a sale going on their Calvin Kline bras- so I bought a few... unfortunately we picked a check out line that was going 2 times slower than all the others in the store! We were in line for about 30 minutes! Very irritating! We had just gotten to the mall and I was ready to leave!! lol My Christmas tree is still up- I just don't want to take it down. I love having it up in my house! Oh well... I can't leave it up too much longer... I'll probably take it down on Jan 1st so I can clean my carpets this weekend...

Two weeks and Aaron and I will have been married for 3 years... It doesn't seem like it's been that long... And we are both looking forward to a MUCH BETTER 2009! I just know that many good things are to come!

Happy New Year!!!

Not much happening

I'm not feeling well today. Self induced misery. But it doesn't help that I have nothing going on at work. I literally have about 3 hours worth of work to fill up 8 hours. And I will probably have less than that tomorrow! Maybe I'll just take another vacation day...

Anyway. I found out something yesterday that is going to bother me for a while. A friend is pregnant. But its not the best time for him and his girl friend, they've been fighting and just not having a great time in the relationship, so they are considering terminating the pregnancy. It makes me sad (hence the self induced misery). And I can't tell him I think he should or shouldn't terminate because I wouldn't be the one having to live with the decision. I will always be amazed at the things that happen in this world. People who want babies and would take good care of them can't have them and people who don't want them get pregnant and either have them and don't take care of them, or they terminate a beautiful life without realizing what they could've had. It's not my place to judge what others do, I just think that it's sad for the children. They didn't do anything to deserve to be born into a less than ideal situation, or do anything not to be brought into the world. Who knows- Maybe they'll keep the little one and everything will go well. We never know what will happen. I just wish I could get pregnant with out fertility treatments, or with out the worry of knowing my little one could not make it...

Endless Amounts of Amusement

So if you've never heard my comments on my husband's lack of communication about family events, you'll here them now. I love my husband- but when it comes to family functions, he is very unable to keep me in the loop. I've started to try to just leave him out of it- but that doesn't always work. For example Christmas Day. We made plans to have his whole family over on Saturday- yes I've been running around like a chicken w/ it's head cut off all week- and on Christmas Eve my parents are coming over. So on Christmas Day, I was under the impression that we didn't have plans. So I started making plans to spend it w/ his mom. And I was very vocal about these plans. I told Aaron every step of the plan making what we were doing, when, and what we were bringing... And I just assumed (you would think I had learned by now...) that he was aware that Christmas Day was being spent w/ his mother! So last night, I was vacuuming... and I stopped for a minute to move some stuff and I here him on the phone- "No, we don't have any plans for Christmas Day... Yes, we'll be there!" I about had a heart attack!! I just stood there looking at him, trying to interrupt, knowing if I did he'd be mad. So I held my tongue until after he got off the phone. And said "UM We are going to your mom's for Christmas!" Apparently, before I'd made plans (that he was fully aware of) with his mom, he'd told his uncle we'd go to ANTHEM for Christmas with them! OMG! To make a long story not as long, He texted me this morning and we're going to his mom's only (thank God). I wish he'd communicated with me earlier about the Smith family thing- but then, he's not perfect! And the Christmas Cirrcus begins! :) I love it!

The Christmas Tree Story

My story starts with a conversation I had with Aaron. He didn't want to spend the money on a real tree, so we decided to get a stand for an artificial tree. So I went to Walmart and bought one and had Aaron set up the artificial. When Aaron was done, I didn't think it looked bad, so we were going to stick with the artificial. Then Aaron said "My hands smell bad from that tree..." And they did. Mildew. And the tree smelled worse! Again! Mind changed! What a journey! lol. So we got ready to go- and went to the tree place on the corner. When we got there, we were very sad that the Nobles were so expensive! I only wanted to spend about $50, so we were looking at the Douglas Firs. Not my favorite. The guy that was working there came around asked us what we were looking for and then kinda walked away. So we kept looking. Then the guy came back and said "I can make you a deal on one of the Nobles I still have wrapped up in the back. The only deal is that you get what you get. Kinda like a Christmas Surprise!" So he walked away again and Aaron and I talked and decided that we wanted the Christmas Surprise. If our tree had squirrel holes- that would only add character! So we let them know that's what we wanted to do and we got the perfect size tree for $50! We were so excited! So we got it home and unwrapped the tree and got this:

Now when trees are wrapped like that they take about 24 hours until you can tell what they are going to look like, so I had to wait to decorate it. But I was optimistic that the tree was going to turn out perfect! It smelled so good and Butter was having the time of her life going under the tree and rubbing her face on the branches like a cat! She loves that tree! So we woke up the next morning and realized that the tree was perfect! (except for the part in the back that only Aaron and I will ever see!) This is the perfect tree w/ no decorations:

So later in the day on Saturday, after I got back from the 3 mile hike Ashsuire and I did, I was planning on just taking a nap. But the tree was beckoning me like a big pile of leaves raked into a pile and I just couldn't leave it naked any longer! I have too many beautiful ornaments to put up! So I spent the next 2 hours (or maybe it was more) putting my trees ornaments up! And what a glorious site it is! And the only credit Aaron gets is keeping the tree watered! He has been deemed the Stuart of the Tree!

I love my tree- and so does Butter! lol